Speaking of Mindo...

...the Magnificient. A Legend in his own mind. That's not fair, actually. His mind is...complicated. I think a lot of the time he isn't even aware of who he is, or where he is. He appears to be almost driven, in some out of control desire to fix someone or something. It has always been this way.

Word has it he's been spotted on the Drift, hiding out in the hills. He's not been causing any trouble, so I've just put him out of my mind, until now.

But now, I need to bring him in. Lily has been disappearing a lot. I don't know if she's spending time with Mindo, or if she's just off on a hunt, or what. I just know she is not around very much at all. And, last night, Seana mentioned that when she *is* around, she seems to be digging, almost obsessively.

That is not good. That is not good at all.

Add to this mix of events my trip to Caliban. Krenshar has been "experimenting" with various organics, and finding them "messy". I asked him to show me his lab, and he did. It was more like a slaughterhouse. Caliban is a dangerous place. I went unarmed and unafraid. Fear has no place in my mind, not now. The replicant seems to be looking for something to 'fix' Lily and the cub.

Seems we have the same goal. Isn't that interesting.

Let's hope I don't have to resort to the same methods.

I did make Krenshar a little promise. Something that I think he might like to get ahold of. Someone actually. I don't know how I feel about that. Mostly I feel nothing.

But its time. Now I just have to find him.

Where are you hiding, Little Boy?

She's started digging

Last night I stopped in Fook's, just to check up on "things" in general. Sabrina was there with Seana. Seeing her took me a bit by surprise. I always forget the effect she has on me. There is something about her that is so mesmerizing, so ...I don't know what it is actually. It's just always been that way, since the first time I saw her sitting on a little round cushion at Firefly's, back in Blackburne.

There she was, all by herself, wearing jeans and a shirt, not all dressed up by any means. Yet she was the most beautiful woman in the place. She had an intensity in her eyes that her big glasses didn't even begin to hide, rather they magnified. She was so...thoughtful. I could almost watch her mind working. Well, truth be told, I could, but I did not allow myself to do it.

Last night was the same. Seeing her triggers a lot of memories of Blackburne. But they are my memories. I can't take in all of the rest. It's just too much. For now.

People think because I have a good intuition or can "read" that its just something I do all the time. Truth be told, I rarely do it intentionally. It took years for me to be able to do it intentionally. Initially, it would come as flashes of just knowing things. It wasn't until I was halfway through my time under Neutrino's command that I began to have more control over the "knowing".

Maybe such things are just not supposed to happen until you need them to. And there is no doubt I needed to know, to survive. If I hadn't read what was going to happen in the next seven days before I was released from my Alliance internship, I would have stayed right there on that ship. If I would have stayed, I would not be here today. I'd be under the glass , with her, or I'd be not here at all.

I wouldn't be here today to try to find out what it is that drives them to the things they do to us. What do they want? Who *are* they? It's not just Grandfather and the company. Yes, he co-founded the company. And yes, they do all of these experiments. But there is more to it than that. Why is a replicant - one that supposedly has nothing to do with us - so concerned with Blue Sun projects. Why did Mindo select Seana Kawanishi's DNA to be the human female DNA for AuroraBlue?

And speaking of Mindo. ...